I am different.
I live and chase my passions, even though there are many and the one that tops the list always changes.
I love the search even though it might not be out there.
I am critical, impatient and have a short fuse.
I am funny, creative, enthusiastic and loyal.
I am insecure and smart.
I am loving and a true romantic.
I am an aquaholic and a go-getter.
I don’t like people that complain, but I like people that live their downs and talk about it.
I hold grudges as I am not to good at forgiving.
I am learning.
I am inspiring to and inspired by others.
I have a constant dialogue in my head, and I fail to be happy where I should be.
I live hard to be happy and find “it”.
I am too hard on myself.
I live outside the circle, inside the circle is boring to me.
I am energetic and enjoy people.
I love to love but will not search for it.
I love being by myself but prefer sharing.
There is lots to love, stuff not to like, as I am not perfect.
I AM ME.
Yani is working on projects on spirituality and wellbeing: graphic design, communications & project management. And doing Shambhala & Reiki. You can connect with her here:
My last day in Thailand was purely random. I felt a bit restless and I really wanted to do some yoga. I wanted to follow a nice class. I checked the schedules of 4 studios in Rawaii area, south Phuket. Plenty of options -I thought-. I took the scooter and went to the closest one. It happened to be closed. So quickly I decided to drive down to Kata. I was in control, I did my research. It took me about 20′ to get to this Hot Studio. But, surprise surprise, I must have looked wrong the times. There was no class at this time. It really made me wonder. I was certain I knew the class times for the 4 places. I had to rush. I was running out of time. I knew a class was starting in 5 minutes on a studio nearby. Quickly I hopped on the scooter again and started driving. This class was on a hotel roof top, right on a hill. What I didn’t expect is such a steep road. My scooter didn’t make it. Right in the middle of the hill I almost fell and I had to pull over. I was already late, but I still run up. By the time I arrived I was soaked in sweat. I asked at the reception where was the class taking place. Her answer: “Today no yoga“. I was furious!! It was so upsetting. I couldn’t believe it! I was mad because I thought I was not “manifesting”. How can it be I was putting so much effort on something and it wouldn’t work?!? It is really interesting to see ourselves sometimes facing these situations. You try so hard, but still it doesn’t happen. It took me a few minutes to calm down. I reflected. Synchronicity is NOT exactly what we think. It doesn’t mean things roll always the way we want -just perfect-according to our wishes-matching our efforts-.
Synchronicity gives you what YOU need at each moment. And that evening, this is exactly what I needed to face. All that frustration and the restless feeling I had to seat with. Embrace it. Learning how to stand with my own emotions. Not running away. Or escaping.
I relaxed. I let it go. Fine, this is it -I thought-. I asked for the restrooms I wanted to wash my face. While walking up the stairs I saw this beautiful rooftop. Yoga mats. Blocks. Even towels! I was astonished.
I dropped my little bag. I laid down in one of the mats. I cried a little. I laughed a little. And I did a slow yoga practice for 2 hours…. I felt GREAT.
My conclusion is not, yeah at the end, I managed to do a yoga class. The conclusion is not: “at the end you get what you want”. What you want and what you need is different.
All this enable me to observe my emotions. My thoughts. Seating with uncomfortable feelings. Releasing them without escaping. These situations made us stronger. The trigger here was a simple yoga class. But it can happen with anything. At the end is all about learning about ourselves. Dealing with our emotions. Accepting circumstances. Embracing “for real” what comes into our paths: making us real warriors. We are “Love Warriors”!
Big love to all <3
Rawaii, Phuket, Thailand
Today I saw a teaser that instantly gave me goosebumps. It made me realise again that we all should live our passion. Go for what you feel you are destined to do. Take paths, roads, journeys to get there. Climb hills and mountains and endure the valleys and massive drops to reach it. Whatever your passion is, it is yours. There is no one out there that feels it like you do. Whether your passion is painting, photography, writing, making beanies, coaching, making people laugh or playing the triangle, embrace it and live it. We are too often side-tracked to what may be expected of us (or at least of what we think is expected of us) but where do you want to be and what do you want to do. Your passion is what you should aim for. Not the goal of something that is the vague expression of someone else, the common denominator of the general public’s opinion of how one should live life or the illusion that following that main road will create security for a lifetime. No it is your passions that should be your guide.
If your passion is not as tangible as you might want them to be, dive deeper. This is what I have been doing lately. Writing down what inspires me, what makes me happy. By doing so, I realised I have quite a bit of passions, it’s my task to figure out which one is the biggest. I will figure out a way to fit the other ones in. But really live for my passion is what I am, and you are as well, destined to do, and to be honest I was already doing it.
We seriously love our soulful-funky tunes to get the day started. The other day, a friend took me out to the sunday Fremantle (aka Freo) market and we ended up at the infamous Sail & Anchor. While having a drink and looking down the balustrade to watch the street artists, this song hit my ear-drums. In a second I jumped up, ran to the bartender and got introduced the the song that is currently on repeat for a whole day. Electric Empire reminds me of Good Ol’ Stevie and create heaps more funky, soulful and happy tunes besides “Yes I Will”. So that’s it. Enjoy.
We are human beings. We are here to experience. Learn. Change. Adapt. Transform. And all that involves moments of pain and distress. Pain is not to be avoided. You may be able to escape it -but just temporarily- Pain is a gift. A wake up call. An opportunity to grow into a new level of consciousness. Suffering is a choice. Occurs when attaching to the pain and not wanting to change-evolve-move forward. Suffering is resistance. Pain is an opportunity.
In order to live life to the fullest, just live it, embrace it all. Take from each and very experience the most of it. Evolve. Feeling grateful to be alive and being able to experience it all. ❤️
My music-taste varies quite a bit. I can listen to hip hop, alternative, indie rock, opera and then switch straight over to deep house or electro. It is really what my mood wants to hear. The last couple of weeks, I have actually been going through music-memory-lane. Old songs that I forgot about were playing through my headphones and suddenly I got goose-bumps. It was a song from 2Pac that I listened to when I was about 17 years-old (if you want to hear the songs go here). Again, I realized that music can have so much power. The song was followed by a song called “Nothing Left” made by a dear friend that is an extremely talented singer/songwriter, James Lange. Besides the fact that his music comes straight from the heart, he is one of those pure and genuine souls that you know you will not meet very often in your life. . His music pierces through your eardrum and can just overwhelm you.
The power of good music keeps surprising me. It can make a cloudy day brighter and this is my remedy for when I am not feeling it. or more importantly make awesome days even better (as I got heaps more awesome days then not-feeling-it days). I pick up my music and select the songs in a playlist that will give me that extra boost. It will change or extend my mood in a way that nothing else will.
Donny Hathaway – Little Ghetto Boy is another one of my absolute favourites