It sounds weird, but today we were kind of lost. Yes really, we were lost in paradise. After a while we figured out that it this feeling derives from two different things. First there is a tangible part. We are confronted with being on the other side of the world and can’t take care of things that are still continueing back at home. That would be mortgages, taxes, insurances and loads of other “topics”. And we realised today that we felt lost, just because it is out of our control, we can’t just pick up the phone and get it done, it doesn’t work like that as it is just more difficult to deal with more than 2 oceans and numerous timezones away.
Besides these administrative “issues”, we also realised that we feel lost because we can’t clear our head. We seriously love yoga, but in the end, surfing is our passion, it is our meditation. It gives us energy and clears our head. A surf session can also give you a different perspective on things that might look unsolvable in the beginning. But we have to stay out of the water as we want to make sure that our infected reef cuts heal well.
In the end, this is not meant to be a I-am-in-paradise-and-still-complain monologue but more so a confession that even in paradise you can be lost. Wherever you go, you take yourself with you, you are surrendered to those who help you out while you are on the other side of the world and you need to let go of the control. And It teaches us to remain patient, to rely on the fact that it will be ok and that we can’t always get what we want straight away.
So for now, we will be patient and stay on our path through paradise. We will keep wandering, embrace these experiences and leave them for what it is, how uncomfortable they feel sometimes.