The wandering journey we go through take us to a lot of different places. We discover, experience, see, feel, taste and absorb. In the mind & heart that means that there is a lot to process. Experiences & interactions to digest that can make you feel at ease or completely swipe you of your feet. During this journey, we have experienced that one feeling pops up quite regularly, restlessness. After a while we started to realize how long this feeling has been with us. How difficult it actually is to get rid of these feelings.
We looked deep down into our mind and heart and realized that this feeling comes from old beliefs and patterns. The belief that we always have to strive after goals and achievements. That we always had a particular goal and we always wanted to be better, smarter, faster, prettier, nicer and this list goes on and on. And now that we are wandering without a tangible achievement to go after, that makes us restless. Sometimes, we can even question our journey when the discomfort becomes too big.
The achievements and goals we were going after were based on the belief that we thought everyone had an expectation of us. And we got lost in this maze of expectations, not aware of that fact that we actually created this maze ourselves. There has not been anyone that literally said to us that we had to go to law school and have a huge career. We thought that was expected of us, that we would be a better, smarter person if we would just do that. So we just did and studied and worked hard to achieve that goal. But at the end we did not feel fulfilled or happy, we actually hit the dead-end of the maze.
What is currently happening is that we have found the end of the maze. We took the step to wander and have this amazingly inspiring journey. Our old thoughts and habits can come up because it is a deeply engraved habit, which is why we have this restless feeling. Our mind is still not completely used to the fact that we are not striving for a goal or achievement but that we live life by the day. That we follow where our heart takes us. All that we have to do is be conscious and aware that this feeling will pop up, while escaping the maze of expectations and leave all these old patterns behind us. The journey we are on is one that creates freedom in our head and allows us to grow. The fact that we identified these feelings, enables us to leave our old patterns and beliefs behind that are deeply rooted in our system.