During our stay in the Silent Retreat something happened that I wanted to share. It was Sunday morning and I attended yoga class at 7:00. Our yoga-teacher wanted to dedicate the class to the Hindu God Ganesha, the remover of all obstacles, as it was full moon that night. The moment she shared this, it hit quite deep. Not that I have a numerous amount of obstacles in my life that need removal, but just like any other human being on this earth, I have my insecurities and bottle-necks that I want to conquer. As the yoga class started and continued, this thought repeatedly went through my mind.
That same evening the retreat organized a fire ceremony. This ceremony was beautiful because of its simplicity. Each attendee was asked to write down all the negative thoughts, emotions, experiences, encounters or any other negativity on paper. Simply just all the stuff you want to get rid off. As the fire in the metal pot in the middle of the circle of people was lid and we all started chanting, each person would step up whenever they felt like and throw their paper into the pot. A symbol to remove these negative things out of our lives as the full moon lit strongly above us. Where this experience already made a deep impression on me, it was actually the next morning that struck me most. As I wandered along the paths at 6 am in the morning, I sat down in this wooden hut. I tilted my head and looked into the sky where the sun was just about to rise. For the last 4 days I never saw the sun while it rose due to the clouds, but this day, it broke through the clouds and was beaming right at me. As a sign that my inner thoughts and conversations were heard and that it was ok. At this moment I actually had difficulty not starting to cry, as it was insanely symbolical and beautiful. To make that day complete, as I walked towards the Bale to attend my last yoga practice, I looked to my left and this mesmerizing full rainbow appeared out of nowhere, which felt as a confirmation that I had done what I came for. I was at ease and ready to go home.