This Is Me


The acceptance who I really am has been somewhat of a challenge for me. It is a confrontational journey realizing that I will never meet up to my own high expectations of myself. I always needed to be better, faster, smarter, more intelligent, funnier, fitter, more beautiful and everything else that starts with more or ends with –er. The outlook of living my life and  failing to be this “perfect” human being was actually dragging me into a downwards spiral. I did not like myself too much to be honest. On the other side though, I was always able to look at it from the other side. Whatever one side of my brain was telling me, the other side always stayed strong. It remained positive and kept embracing the many opportunities that crossed my path and tried to see life from the bright side even though I found life a pretty hard one. As I chased down perfection, I always knew deep down inside that I deserved better then the view of myself that was deeply imprinted into my head. I fought the hard battle and finally decided to let go, to just let life come to me and accept me for me.

Not soon after this mind-shift, I quit my job. And as my mind shifted further, the perception of how perfect “me” should be, shifted as well. My energy was focused on those qualities that I have and appreciate instead of those that I didn’t have or lacked, those that made me imperfect. It has been a hard road mentally. Changing your attitude towards yourself if you have been actively proofing yourself the opposite for 36 year, will definitely not happen over night.

Luckily, I am gifted with some good old strong will-power, McGyver-like survival mode capacities and a bundle of positivity that gave and still give me strength to really love and live my life. Embracing everything that enters my path, worked hard without complaints, surround myself with amazing people and always keep smiling. Yes smiling heals.

It is this time of the year that I always look back in awe on how much I have grown from the head person that I was into someone that can really feel. The road I travelled makes me miss my dearest friends and family but for me it was a necessary step to really be me. It is beyond my own imagination that I am able to proudly say This Is Me, the wandering, full of energy, jaw-hurting smiling, wave hunting, hard working, smoothie making, apple loving, good set of brains equipped, die-hard loyal, never complaining, beanie making, travel addicted natural beautiful ME. The perfect imperfect ME.

 

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About TALES OF THE WANDERING SOULS

We are not lost, we are just wandering. We love to absorb all that surrounds us, inspire and be inspired by others submerged in adventures and occasional happenings that we love to share with you. Our common denominator is yoga, surf and coconuts. That's our playground and it keeps us grounded. Connected with our true selves, growing and being just the person we love to be. Life is a roller-coaster and the trick is to enjoy every ride. Every bit of negative is a positive too as it brings new experiences and connect us with new people or events. We are learning and having fun. We focus on all the good things we find on our journey and be inspired by inspiration in everything we encounter, these are our Tales of the Wandering Souls. On our blog you will find all the categories that we want to share with you: Saturday Chronicles: A returning post where we will discuss Past, Present and Future with awesome people we meet along our journey. People A deeper and more profound conversation that can be in the form of Q&A or a random dialogue. Just because we are always inspired by people that follow their dreams in life. Be You Displays those things that makes us happy. We love to dress up, enjoy cool clothes that makes us feel awesome within the moment. We are evolving and transforming so just BE YOU today, and enjoy what makes you feel at your best. Inspirational We share all those interesting & worth seeing places we find in our path. Quotes & stories we write, words of others, art, tunes, books and everything that can inspire you. Food Who doesn't want to have a yummy meal? We will share our favourite dishes, our own & others… And of course we will give you the full low-down with an easy DIY. Our Playground From Yoga to Surf and do not forget the Coconuts. We love being active while having fun. From poses we enjoy repeating, to favourite breaks and specific excursuses. Our playground is the place where we connect. Our playground can become yours.

One comment

  1. The yin and yang of our desire to be perfect, to find ourselves and be comfortable with what we find , to also be the best we can be …what a conundrum of self talk circles … This is all beautifully said – thank you and more importantly, here’s to reflecting ahead – not backwards – to 2016.

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